Walking In Freedom ~ I Am Enough
32 Now as Peter was traveling through all those regions, he came down also to the saints who lived at Lydda. 33 There he found a man named Aeneas, who had been bedridden eight years, for he was paralyzed. 34 Peter said to him, “Aeneas, Jesus Christ heals you; get up and make your bed.” Immediately he got up.
I struggled this week. Struggled with going back to the bondage I was once freed from. You see, I too once laid paralyzed in a bed. A bed riddled with feelings of inadequacy, fear, discontentment, and not feeling good enough. And this week I struggled.
I’ve been here before. I’ve experienced this set back before. I’ve been walking out my freedom in this area but lately, today, this week, I’m realizing the Enemy knows I’m free too and has been trying his hardest to get me back into that bed.
The bed that once consumed me. The bed that was my life. The bed of low self-worth that enveloped my paralyzed heart, flesh and soul. The bed that Jesus told me to arise out of a long time ago. He told me to arise and then He told me to make it up just like Peter told Aeneas to make his up.
He told me to make it up because it was no longer going to be used. He told me to make up the bed because that chapter of my life was closing and was no longer meant to consume me anymore. He told me to make it up because he healed me and set me free. The bed is in my past and no longer my home. I didn’t need it anymore. He gave me a new direction. He told me that I was enough. I was adequate and I was loved and I was healed. So through much prayer I arose, made up my bed and walked out my healing in those areas.
But on days like today, and weeks like this week, the temptation to forget about what God has done in my life and the bed he has freed me from is great. Days like today what once consumed me seems overwhelming. The bed is calling me and I just want to lay back down. Because sometimes laying down in the familiar of who I was is much easier than walking in the newness of who I’m called to be. What’s familiar is the feeling of not being enough. What’s familiar is the pattern of de-valuing myself and not seeing my worth. It’s the bed I laid in for years. It was as much home for me as it was for Aeneas.
The good news, however, is that when I walk over to my bed today I have to see that it is still made. The bed that used to hold me is now without me in it, which serves as a reminder that God, at one point, did a work in me and I need to remember that. I don’t have to lie back down. I must remember the healing and that I am whole. I am becoming the woman he has called me to be. No I’m not perfect, but I’m no longer paralyzed either. The empty bed that I now stand staring at is empty because it can no longer hold me. It was never intended to keep me. My bed has been made!
So I will not believe the lies of the Enemy trying to confine me to that bed again. I will look at the truth around me.
The truth is I am standing.
The truth is I am healed.
The truth He spoke over me is that I am enough and I am more than adequate in Him.
So this week I choose to not lay down in the bed Satan has prepared for me. This week I’m fighting. My paralyzed days are over. I can and will walk in my freedom. All I have to do is remember that My bed has already been made!!!!
So what about you? What bed is the enemy trying to make you lie down in? A bed you know you have been freed from but the temptation to lie back down in it is great. Can I encourage you as I encourage myself to remember what God has done in your life. Remember what He set you free from and fight to not go back. Focus on the truth of who he says that you are and rebuke every lie that the enemy throws your way. That bed is not for you! It was never intended to keep you. You made it up once, and Friends, it is still made!!! Your paralyzed days are over! Walk in your freedom.